Monday, February 25, 2008

Long Winter


It has been a long winter, mixed with illness and pleasures, even joys. I stop and ask what energy do I have? How do I use it? How do I know when enough is enough?
We saw "Bucket List." Timely. The question now is: if you have a prognosis of one year or less to live, what do you decide - in what ways will you live blessings?
What if your prognosis is longer, indefinite, but your energies lessen and there is an increase in non-motor symptoms?
What if you or I have, say, two or three years? Then what? These are the questions I am living with.
More than ever, it is time to relax and to trust in my Beloved Creator. "All will be well, I say. All will be well again." I manage to be trusting, but then the trust evaporates. How to stay centered in the eternal?
A wonderful, joyful pleasure is that my Pocatello family, David and I, our daughter and our two granddaughters, ages eleven and nine, are knitting a wedding quilt for our second oldest granddaughter who lives in Ohio. David agrees to knit one square, so he is learning to knit, imagine that? The colors and designs are rich. There are lots of mistakes, just as in life and marriage, yet they are knitted into the fabric and life is strengthened, love grows and wraps us in warmth.
Blessing is living in the moment, surrounded by love and held close.
Judy